Thursday, August 21, 2008

have you ever felt depressed for no reason?
or rather, like you feel so useless, cuz you know you can save yourself, but somehow just cant bring yourself to do it?

i don't know. how should i salvage this?

Posted by auddie at 7:26 PM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

finally, new skin! im still pretty attached to the last one, but i just had to change it today. its called impulse. no, not the deodorant. you get what i mean. will settle the hosting of the pictures myself and the alignment of several things (the tagboard, for instance... will realign and move up another time)

i guess it does have some significance... im pretty much in denial in many things in my life.
and its pretty cute, seeing what my previous skin was (its like mary's covering up her crimes through DENIAL?)

i shouldnt have been spending so much time on this... should have been studying. i need more discipline.

i finally practiced my violin ! :D like solid practice. ok it wasnt really solid, but it was satisfactory :D BUT... cost: i didnt do any homework/revision at all. damn. but at least i practiced :) and yay! strings tomorrow (: but for the last time till damned exams.

ah, there are so many quirky things in life. you never know what's going to come next. there, that was random, wasn't it? (:

i think i wanna do a photo journal one day (: my poor canon feels underused and under appreciated.

Posted by auddie at 12:29 AM

Monday, August 11, 2008

ah. damn. my dog scratched me BIG TIME today. but i guess its not really her fault, cuz she was really really cooped up today. :/ my arm has like lovely red thingees strewn across it. wow.

today was really sian. really wanted to shop in parkway, but its kinda depressing with my sis around. i have no idea why. but happily enough, bout a pair of slippers (finally!) yesterday and other random crap :D oh wells.

and i love musicals. yeah.



hallelujah to youtube (:

Posted by auddie at 9:56 PM

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

tag replies:

jess: huh, mary had a little lamb! and they're still fighting it out, i guess, about how the lamb died. and omg i really hope you can come back :( and yeah. non-religious (:

minlu: hey girl, thanks (:






ok. this week has been crazy, i guess. and its not getting better, cuz promos are AROUND THE CORNER. and its like, CTs are like just over!! its so soon. and the scary thing is, i've been identified as a "student at risk". meaning i have to see the principal. gosh. i wonder why T_T and my grades aren't all that bad!!! oh no oh no i wonder why ! scariest thing is that im having my recital EXACTLY when i have to meet the principal, so my ct said that she'd make some arrangement for me. omg. i wonder what T_T SCARYYYYYYY!

i have no idea why i am so GGed with my homework. i have like LOADS for GP due, loads i have to prepare for chem and bio lessons, and for music, i am just totally GGed. and i HATE doing homework. ok, normal people hate it, but they still end up doing it. but I DONT. I DONT KNOW WHY. SOMEONE HELP ME T_T

my life is kinda crazy in a boring way. how sucky is that?

and i HATE IRRITATING CANTEEN PIANISTS WHO HAVE PATHETIC REPERTOIRES WHO PLAY THE SAME THING AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. WHY CANT THEY GET A LIFE, OR LEARN SOME NEW PIECES OR JUST COMPLETE WHATEVER THEY START PLAYING INSTEAD OF MAKING IT MORPH INTO SOMETHING ELSE!?!?!?!?

ok i shouldnt be complaining. long explanation why, but baseline is, its just wrong.

Posted by auddie at 9:33 PM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Why me?

They say that everything happens for a reason, but I can't see how this would fit in.

Some also say that things like these only make you stronger. I do hope so.

If only I could look to something, somewhere, someone for strength. I've been holding the fort on my own far too long. I just hope that I won't break.

And no, God is NOT an option.

Posted by auddie at 10:51 PM